and here is said preface - im not particularly depressed or a nything, just in the state of constant self analysis and self confrontation.


I, like most people, am a smartass hypocrite who just loooooooooves to point out other peoples flaws. And one I partiuclarly like making fun of is when people hide from their own thoughts by doing some stupid action. We all know the joke. The muscley dude asks himself if hes gay and instead he goes and works out. The slutty girl doesnt want to think about her home life so she goes out and fucks everything she can.

I think most peoples entertainment is about self avoidance. I think this is directly responsible for the proliferation of the so-called story telling in our culture. Everything is escapist entertainment. Movies, music, tv, comics, books, even fashion and shit is based on trying to leave your own miserable experience and be someone ese for just a little while. Im not going to talk about what else entertainment should be or could be, cuz honestly im not even sure myself. All Im saying is that it is ALL about the avoidance of self. The movie may have sucked, but atleast it was pretty. I mean....do we really find sitcoms entertaining (unless youre talking about The Big Bang Theory. BEST SHOW EVAR)

So, where does my hyprocrisy come in? Here it is. I completely preach self confrontation at every turn. You should, skeptikally, be asking yourself why youre doing whatever youre doing and how you feel about that. However, when shit gets rough, I find myself doing the same behavior in different ways. So, let me pose you this question....Whats the difference between wanting to avoid ife by watching tv or movies and opening up a book or donig a drawing everytime life gets hard?


Cuz I see none.